I am the most selfish person in the world

My friends and I go out on a weekly basis. We usually pick something athletic to do. Sometimes we play pool, other times we go golfing, and on the rare occasion we go bowling. When I play them I lose about 95% of the time. I don’t lose because I’m a bad player but because I am selfish. Don’t understand, well let me explain.

Let me pick a game like pool. I am a really good pool player. It’s not often I find a really good challenge when it comes to pool. But I have learnt that no one likes to play someone who always wins, especially my friends. When I would win with my friends consistently all of a sudden they would stop calling me, sometimes for several weeks at a time.

I don’t care whether I win or lose. I don’t have a competitive bone in my body. When I play a sport I play to have fun and not to win. Same goes for every sport that I play. If you thought that was crazy wait until you hear what I am about to say.

When I win, I feel bad for the loser because the loser becomes sad. But when I lose then the winner is happy, for some reason that makes me happy. I don’t know how else to put it. I may very well be the least competitive person on the planet. The moment something stops being fun I stop playing.

Is that not the most selfish thing you have ever heard?