Gathering ones thoughts is hard to do

I have now been trying to write something on my blog for 40 minutes and nothing is coming out. It's not that I don't have anything to write but I can't seem to gather my thoughts. Every time I come up with a good article to write I get discouraged a few lines in and erase it.

Something starts off as a good idea but the more I think about it the more I get discouraged. Or perhaps it's a bunch of scrambled thoughts thoughts that I can't properly put on the page. Or in some cases I can't properly describe my thoughts or feelings on a subject. Or I realize how un-interesting the idea was and send it back to oblivion with my delete key. Or I reread the article and realize that's not where I intended it to go.

I really lack courage and confidence when writing. It's probably because I have never been a very good writer. I even remember back in school I never got any encouragement to write. I would pour my heart into an article on to get it back receiving a bad mark. All my writers seem to follow this very article where it's a bunch of ideas that are just cluttered up that don't make sense.

I'll stop writing now because with every word I write I make less sense.

A convesation I had

Anonymous Person: Hey Ilan, should I buy a card with the gift for ...
Me: Yes.
Anonymous Person: But I don't want to buy a card.
Me: You're probably right, you shouldn't buy a gift card.
Anonymous Person: I don't think I will buy a card then.

Was this one of those rhetorical questions I keep hearing about? I've actually been thinking about giving this very instance a word for the dictionary.

Word Definition: When someone asks you a questions and already knows the answer. You are either wrong if you disagree with that person or you are right if you agree with them.
It's not a rhetorical question because this question does not have an obvious solution.

I just need to give this instance a word. Anyone have any suggestions for a new word that will fit this definition?

Irony at it best

I just finished a conversation with a buddy of mine about a internet service called 1&1.com. This conversation occurred at 11:55 on April 9th, 2007. By the end of the conversation I was really sold on their service. I was truly hoping that I could try the service to see what they really offer. So I wrote them a big e-mail asking them a few basic questions about their service.

After I wrote the e-mail I checked my inbox and I found this e-mail from 1&1.com. The letter is posted below.

Dear Ilan Silver,

After well over 3 years, the 1&1 Professional Preview Package is being
phased out at the end of this month. We would like to sincerely thank
you for being a part of putting 1&1 Internet on the web hosting map
in North America.

We started in September 2003 with a lot of enthusiasm, great ideas and
the desire to change the web hosting landscape in North America by
offering reliable web hosting at affordable prices.

If you would like to continue to be a part of the 1&1 family PLEASE
ACT NOW! For example, you can switch to a Professional Package,
which costs just $3.99 per month and includes all the same great features
and tools that are currently included in your package. This package is
only available to our Professional Preview Package customers.


Or log in to your Control Panel and upgrade to one of our many
competitively priced hosting packages. The process is easy and quick.
For detailed instructions on how to upgrade and to answer any questions
you may have about your package please visit our special FAQ at
http://faq.1and1.com/ppp

Your package will automatically deactivate on or after 04/10/07. At
this time your web space will no longer be accessible along with any
e-mail addresses and nameserver entries you may have set up. Additionally
we will delete ALL files from our systems and backup systems.

Please note that once the data is deleted it will be irrevocably lost!

We thank you for your trust and your support over three years and
invite you to extend this relationship indefinitely by upgrading NOW!

If you have any questions please contact our representatives at

ppp@1and1.com  (E-mail)
1-866-258-5299 (Phone)

Sincerely,

1&1 Internet Inc.

1and1.com

I tried to log in at 12:30 on April 10th, 2007 but my account was already deleted. I do remember just for the hell of it signing up for a free account 3 years ago. It was a special promotion that they had going on. Unfortunately I had completely forgotten about it.

If my friend told me about it just 24 hours earlier I could have previewed the service. Talk about ironic or what?